I have always loved Christmas and i look forward to the Christmas shopping and our family's traditional Christmas dinner and opening of gifts. I look forward to the quality time we spend in decorating the house, putting up the Christmas lights, filling up the tree with gifts, shopping for gifts and posting of our Christmas wish list.
We usually get the Christmas kick after we put up the decors which is around middle of November. However, this year we were a bit delayed. Thinking about it, i suppose it could be because everybody's been busy but then again, truth be told even if we dont say it out loud, its because this Christmas and the coming ones will not, make that never be the same. We are no longer complete and this will be our first Christmas without dad. I honestly dread for Christmas day to come because my heart aches just by the thought that it is fast approaching but then again, i know life must and has to go on and dad would not want me sad either, i am sure of it.
We were used to the traditional red, green and gold color motifs for our Christmas decors, but all of a sudden, mom said she does not like red for Christmas this year. Whether its because its too happy a color, or it reminds her of dad or maybe she really does want another color for a change, i do not dare ask.
And so, im saying goodbye to the reds this year and will welcome the tangerine gold and green color motifs along with my credit card bill from the decor overhaul. Our Christmas will change but dad will remain in our hearts..our decors will change but it will still be filled with the same love our family has shared all these years.. And so I look forward to the holiday season..and yes, its beginning to look a lot like Christmas.
Hello, Miss Elaine, reading your blog reminds me of my family too. OA to say but my tears just fall down while reading your blog. We may not be in the same situation as you have narrated but it just bring to one common denominator.... you miss your dad and i will miss my family this Christmas,coz i'll be celebrating it alone and far away from them but as you said life has to go on.
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas and Happy New Year in advance :)
Good Bless :)
kae :)
Hello Kae,
ReplyDeleteI believe We all have our own crosses which are given to us because it's something we can handle and it will make us better persons in the end.
As for you, even if you are away I am sure you are blessed with many good things and have a lot to be thankful for. I know your family is proud of you and often, in our quest to reach our dreams, life takes us to places away from people we love and yet it brings us to a place where we can build new friendship and add more love to your life. enjoy the journey.
Take care always Kae and have a Blessed and Meaningful Christmas. :)